Here I am, there I was, where did I go?
I lost my spirit in the ashen snow.
I lost my life, couldnt pay bail,
This is how I started to fail.
I traipse through lightly, walking on a cloud,
Where it started, where it ends, its a dark shroud.
I turned around and walked away,
Could never come back another day.
As for the very last time, I walked through the gates,
I saved my soul for all dark fates.
I didnt know it began my isolation and fears,
There was noone by my side for the rest of my years.
Omega, the end, Venus and Orion,
It left me alone with no shoulder to cry on.
The story of my life, as real as a fairy tale,
This is where I began to fail.
Around the light, the darkness creeps.
Unsaid promises I couldnt keep.
Just so tired of living these lies,
Im keeping my distance away from your eyes.
Memories invade me, theyre beginning to consume,
Theyre re-opening my forgotten wounds.
The darkness burns my soul, takes away the light.
Ive given up, I dont even want to fight.
I want to take control of my life to wash out the burnt taste,
Doesnt matter cause I made the problems in the first place.
No respect left, my hearts for sale,
This is where I started to fail.
Life is a game Ive already lost,
Because all things come with their own little cost.
Ive been beaten, tortured, and Im still all alone.
Ive lost those close to me; Ive lost my home.
Ive turned my back on who used to be my friends.
This reality, my hell, it just never ends.
All their cries for help, I still havent heard.
Not enough dignity left to say even one word.
My mind is consistently and savagely screaming.
I cry and I die whenever Im dreaming.
Should I go now that my death has hailed?
It doesnt matter, does it? Ive already failed