I'm walking through life now- My lesson's learned.
I played with fire until I got badly fuckin burned.
Straight through my soul into my fuckin core
Just couldn't keep steady when he called you a whore.
But that doesn't matter to me anymore,
I've closed and locked that motherfuckin door.
Ready to start the battle over and fight the rest,
Ready to put my faith and truth to the fuckin test.
I'll do it witht he whole world laughing in my face.
I'll do it while my family hangs their heads in disgrace.
I'll be the idiot and the motherfuckin loser.
I'll be the one labeled "the privilege abuser"
Just to see you, feel you, love you, know you...
So many motherfucking things I wanna show you.
You are it- my world...without you I'm alone.
In your arms I can cry because I feel I found my home.
Baby, I wish I could make you understand.
Wish I could just hold your motherfuckin hand.
Wish I could hold on to my very last breath for you.
Wish I could belay my innermost death for you.
But as I face the cruelest and most vile demon hoard.
I smile in spite of myself and gently lay down my sword.
Let them attack from all fronts- if it's my side or my back.
I've got the skills to win but it's the incentive I lack.
Because I words to you will forever be true.
I've given up that life to be a part of you.
Just hoping it won't come haunting me back.
'Cause I flirted with it and it taunted me back.
I'm so afraid of the dark now for each and every night.
Afraid 'cause I know I just won't put up a fight.
Not that I'm afraid meeting my own ineitable death,
But I'd lose you as I exhale my very last breath.
That's where the fear lies within my heart.
Can't give you my soul's rose before we fuckin part.
I know I can't have you- know I don't deserve,
But I want to be there for every one of your life's little curves.
You see, my concerns lie in your happiness, not in my being.
More accurately I couldn't walk forth without seeing.
You're my angel, my darling...I'm gunna hold true.
But I never wanted to fuckin part ways with you.
You've given me guidance and counceled my needs.
You've listened patiently through my cries and my pleas.
Just let me be there, baby...Let me be your best friend.
One way or another I'm hooked until the end.
No matter what happens, my angel and my love,
I've laid down my sword...even if I have to protect you from above.