We pass by each other in total silence,
Forbidden to speak, a cold compliance.
Im wishing for everything we used to be,
But the caress of loneliness has kissed me gently.
I remember how we just used to be together.
How could this friendship so easily sever?
Was it perhaps all the wrong words I spoke?
Or that night I was upset because my house was up in smoke?
As all my belongings perished in the fire?
And you were my one sole desire?
Was it that I couldnt be there, bound by law,
As words were spoken of my every flaw?
A hurtful remark, a slap in the face,
Should I be hanging my head in solemn disgrace?
An icy cold tension, I miss your smooth touch,
And I miss your gentle words as much.
And it doesnt matter how many tears Ive tasted,
But my years with you will never be called wasted.
As we pass by each other, I fight back that legion of tears,
Because I always remember how I loved you for so many years.
Everything is happening all too fast,
And youd constantly told me to stop living in the past.
But the past is all I have to hold on,
Oblivion lasts forever- from our Venus to Orion.
Its a paradox, how we fell apart this way,
And how yesterday left me crying to my own dismay.
Through Alpha and Omega, the Zen forever rules.
The Cardinal gameits made only for fools.
I can only wish that we still held true,
To admit to you once just how much I love you.
I have your picture up on my wall,
The picture is long since gone, ever since I had to take my fall.
The silence is killing me, we have to talk,
Let me speak my mind, and then away Ill walk.
Its a simple problem with a simple solution,
So why cant we get past it? Were caught in the confusion.
I cant help but feel like there was something I missed.
What adherations left us the last time we kissed?
Id lost my mind, and spoke words that made you so sad,
But I wish I could take back everything I said to make you feel like that.
But I canttheyre caught and locked in your mind,
And will most likely be so until the end of our time.
I stop you in the halls and look into your eyes,
I remember when I told you I would never feed you lies.
When I look into your eyes, theres nothing there to see.
Nothing but my own mistakes staring back at me.
My mind is screaming, always asking why?
I know its worth the second chance to try.
Youre looking at me expectantly,
I want to talk, but dont know a synecdoche .
I want to say all the right things,
but I just dont know much of anything.
All things Ive said havent been right,
I just want to be with you throughout nights twilight.
Mark my words: manifest them onto a frame of steel,
As I write this on a pad: the way I feel.
I pray this tension would just go away,
So I could hear you say I love you until my dying day.
Those that speak ill of me to you are trying to deceive,
They use big words so that you cant conceive.
Theyre dealing you in to determine your end,
And sending you back to all the places youve been.
Your beauty impores you, please try to listen,
Even your smiles seem to glisten!
Your thoughts over others will always transgress,
And I will always miss your smooth caress.
Whenever I was with you, my heart stopped bleeding,
Now, as I try to speak, my heart stops beating.
I open my mouth, but the words wont come out,
Because Im holding back from such a serious doubt.
To lose you forever is the sum of my fears,
Worse than death, I would forever shed icy tears.
I work up the courage and begin to speak.
I pray I wont screw up, because my words have always been bleak.