My heart turns to ice, on a cold plate of steel,
Im dead from all the loneliness, and this is how I feel.
You abandoned me, stranded me, left me alone on this world.
Love me, hate me like this as the quicksands of time twisted and twirled.
Im alone, deserted, out on my own.
I have no place to call my home.
I walk the desolate paths of this unforgiving earth.
I have been sworn to hell since the day of my birth.
Living in eternal suffering, not giving a shit about life or death,
who would even care if I expel my last breath?
An afterlife of peace, its so solemnly true,
yet to believe it, I choose not to.
You said go to hell, but Ive already been there,
feeding me lies like not to worry, not to care.
Id like to fall in love, but I dont know how,
even if I did, the bullshit would all turn foul.
I dont give a shit about life, dont give a shit about you or me,
so why dont you just open your blind eyes and see:
Im looking for a simple and plain reason to die,
living through life is like living a lie.
Is it still hard to imagine why I am so full of hate?
Dont confuse my psychosis with a suicidal mental state.
I want to end it now, I want to end it all.
Never made it to the top, yet still managed to fall.
Im breaking, cracking, being pushed over the edge.
Im pissed off, Im confused, this is my one solemn pledge:
give me one reason, just one, and Im swinging on you.
I wont stop swinging till your face turns blue.
Sweat-soaked shirts and piss-stained pants,
Ill show you a real motherfucking death dance.
The only way to stop is for the hate to satisfy,
too bad you lied, now dont try to deny.
I take the repeated blows to my soul,
and can do nothing but cry as it drills its hole.
Theres nothing to replace my shattered heart,
and so subtly and quickly, this life tears me apart.
Bottom line: Im sick, Im tired, most of all, Im done.
Life is a game to play alone, and I know I havent won.