I have feelings of sorrow I will always try to hide,
locked in a chest and held deep inside.
Hidden from a world of pain and greed,
a world where you dont seem to get the things you need.
What I needed most was for someone to care,
someone who would always be there.
Although confused as my emotions compiled,
you still went to heaven when I was only a child.
I sit here and cry, but it wont bring you back,
its a battalion of sorrows just waiting to attack.
I would give all that I own for one more day,
this want digs deeper than any words can say.
I would also give that which I do not own,
the world is not enough to express the pain shown.
I want for just once to hold your hand,
and walk alone with you across the sand.
from the childhood you left me, to a growing man,
I try to do everything I possibly can.
But I have changed so much over the past few years,
Spreading my happiness, and shedding my tears.
I seem to do everything in opposition to right,
though my reasons for doing so are worth the fight.
I never fight out of my own pure wrath,
but everyone says I have taken the darker path.
I want you to see what I have become,
though I know it only matters to some.
I want you to see me and know you are proud,
and watch me above from the so distant clouds.
I want you to tell me if what I do is right,
and I want you to guide me through the dark, lonely night.
Most of all, I want you to smile as you say Im your son,
to all the others who surpass the reaches of the sun.
it doesnt seem to matter how hard I try,
I always find myself asking why?
you left me too soon to hold you near,
and I think of you to subside my fear.
so I have feelings of sorrow I will always try to hide,
locked in a chest, and held deep inside.