I drop to my knees in an unsilenced prayer.
God, I know you hear me- I know you’re out there.
I’ve fought against you, for ten years of my life…
And for it I’ve seen the tip of my suicide knife.
First it was my father, then a very close friend,
Both I watched fight, both I watched meet their end.
The blood of one still flows free on my hands,
But now I know it was my failure to understand.
You sent me an angel from the heavens above.
She taught me a reason- she taught me to love.
Lord, you gave me what I’ve always sought.
The perfect fever of fate that I’ve caught.
You sent me an angel against this world’s hate.
I know and understand that I found out too late.
Guide me, teach me, show me, love me.
I know you’re up there in the heavens above me.
I’ll preach against others, I’ll teach for you…
I’ve spent so long trying to ignore you.
I won’t devote my time but I’ll give it slight of hand.
You gave me the skills to win so I can.
You gave me the strength to stand up and fight.
You gave me the light in the cold, balmy night.
You gave me the manipulation of English speech,
You gave me the words to allow me to preach.
You gave me the writing to spread your word,
Now give me the voice so I won’t go unheard.
Guide me, my Lord, teach me what is right.
My promise to you is to give it all my might.
You gave me angel that took away my pain.
She became my favorite sin when I abused her reign.
You put work into me than I ever believed.
I suppose my failure is credited to being na´ve.
You gave me a son who took all my sin…
He gave me a chance- she taught me to live.