I took a chance and tempted fate,
I tried to take away the hate.
Now its something which I cant refrain,
I thought I could end the pain.
But it only brought more pain unto you,
As you cradle my body, feeling it cold and blue.
My soul stands beside you, watching you cry,
Watching you ask why I had to die.
I didnt mean for you to find me like this,
I thought it was a path to pure bliss.
But you found my body in these upstairs room,
Making this place an icy tomb.
You saw out front where I sat in the mud,
Now you hold onto me in a puddle of my blood.
Outside with the rain pounding upon my face,
I was glad to know I was going to a world of grace.
Now the rain is a symbol of my tears of sorrow,
Drowning away what would have been my tomorrow.
That moment of happiness was my first and last,
Now my soul will wander as a simple outcast.
I wanted to make the whole world pay,
But I didnt mean for you to find me this way.
Now Im sorry I did it, because youre here,
Holding the body of whom was always so dear.
Mom, dad, I couldnt take the pain of this life,
Now you sit here and cry as you remove the knife.
Im sorry, I love you! I keep trying to shout,
If you hear me, you must have a serious doubt.
I thought the world had taken everything away,
I felt as though I could not stay.
I figured there was nobody that cared,
I guess at that time I was just scared.
I am so sorry and now Im afraid,
In the end its me and my life that paid.
The ironic thing is that I never knew,
I never even had a clue.
Because last night, it didnt matter how hard I cried,
I didnt think I would ever commit suicide.