I look up in the clouds and hope you pass the sun.
Youll be right next to God wholl be calling you son.
I wish right now that you werent gone.
We were together even as a fawn.
There were secrets I had that I intended to tell,
But I was too scared, now its like living in hell.
I miss you, I can say that much,
The way you speak, smell and touch.
The way you spoke was like a calm summer breeze,
This world thats my hell because you brought me to my knees.
The way you smelled was better than any perfume I had ever smelled,
It was so sweet for so long my nose could have swelled.
Your touch I could not begin to explain,
Because every time you touched me my heart stopped and I went damn near insane.
I can still remember the first time we met,
I'm sorry to say it was actually a bet.
But I saw you then and the bet was over,
I thought Id died and went to heaven but realized life wasnt over.
Id simply found the greatest part,
Someone who could reach my heart.
I meant to tell you that I loved you,
But nobody could know that the next death was you.
I wish I could say how much pain I feel,
My heart is tearing away like an orange peel.
My heart is broken and shattered,
After repeated loss its been battered.
I loved you then as I still do now,
The only difference is that I cant tell you how.