Where did I go wrong in my simple task?
Was staying alive just too much to ask?
I understand the pain that you went through,
yet you act like there was nothing anyone can do.
The pain you have given me is too much to bear,
now I walk through this world without a care.
you pulled the trigger, the blood is on your conscience
so why do I think all I fed you was nonsense.
I talked you out of it when you hung up the phone,
now I feel like Im in an abyss, all alone.
Why did you take your own life last night?
Why could you not just put up a fight?
You couldnt hold on for one more day?
Just to see if things would go your way?
the worst part was how you let me know,
now I try not to let all this pain show.
Why did you call me as you loaded the gun?
And why was I on the phone when it was all done?
You destroyed my life, my very being,
and I think you did it all without seeing.
I try to hide all of this pain,
yet I find doing so all in vain.
Because I cannot keep myself from crying,
I am withering away, I am slowly dying.
God shuns those who commit suicide,
but I think the whole world has lied.
I want you to know, before I join you above,
that you killed me in the name of love.
Ill make it simple: life is bullshit.
So fuck it all and everything in it.