If you slit my throat, and watch me bleed,
tending to your very own needs,
and watch as I slip slowly into death,
then with one final, gasping breath:
I will apologize to you for bleeding on your shirt,
then pass away from this world of hurt.
If you put the gun up against my head,
make me tell you I wished I was dead,
I would worship the bullet before you put it through me,
I apologize: you wasted a bullet vainly.
Clear shot echoes like a whisper in the night,
tell all your friends I never put up a fight.
Entry wounds wickedness, clear shot to my brain.
You finally took away all my pain.
Hands around my neck, turning me pale,
denying my body the right to inhale.
Eyes closed, lips turned blue,
there is nothing anyone can do.
Im fading away, wholl stop you now?
I dont even want to, who gives a shit anyhow?
Im going to die, there is no doubt,
so I apologize for wasting your strength as I pass out.
Make me swallow formaldehyde,
tell your friends I committed suicide.
Tell yourself you just want to see me cry,
wake up to reality: you want me to die.
Feel contempt as I fade away,
you always knew it would be this way.
and as I choke out my very last breath:
Ill apologize for not bringing sooner my death.
Cover me completely, drench me in gas,
this is all going way too fast.
I feel as though Ill choke on the fume,
all my secrets will never be exhumed.
Strike a match, make me perish in fire,
it will burn away my every desire.
Ill burn in intensity from the hellfire heat,
you did it, you killed me, its an amazing feat.
As you watch the flames rise, going higher and higher,
I will apologize for wasting the butane in your lighter.
Push me off a cliff, make me fly.
Nothing like shedding the chrysalis to die.
It wont be a struggle, I wont fight back,
you dont have to drug me to throw me off track.
Like mandatory suicide,
you push down the lanthanide.
As I fly toward the rocks, I will not scream.
But I promise you Ill haunt your every dream.
Ill close my eyes before I hit the bottom,
and apologize to you for making you do this like its modern.
Any way you kill me, any way at all,
Ive already taken the fall.
You cant scare me with pointless threats,
cant make me contend with living death.
Dont fight someone who has nothing to lose,
I have given you just enough clues.
Touch me, and I will destroy your life,
because me alone is more brutal than any knife.
Do not fear death, fear what I can do,
no cliff, or poison, or fire, or gun will do what I will do.
And in the next life, youll see where I fell.
It is then I will join you in the pits of Hell.