As a child, I remember seeing your face,
Now it seems as though you shone the lights of grace.
When I was eight, I remember how you were always there.
You taught me everything you knew with care.
When I was nine, I remember thinking that life was the best.
Feeling your breath of life as my head lay upon your chest.
I tried to hide it when they told me you had cancer,
But I know now that silence is never the answer.
I remember this day, full of laughter and fun,
Bragging to my friends that you were number one.
It feels really awkward that you could go away,
On such a bright and beautiful sunny day.
But still, a proctor pulled me out of school,
All the while I thought a small vacation? Cool!
We got out of the van, and my mom came to me,
Tears filled her eyes so she could barely see.
She said to me the Lord has finally taken your father to grace
And it was my turn for the tears to streak my face.
It surprised me so bad, because I had no clue,
I really didnt know what cancer could do.
It tears my insides and crushes my heart,
As I remember how you told me well never be apart.
I felt as though I would live in isolation and fear,
I can never help but to drop that one lone, single tear.
I felt as though you had left me forever alone,
Then I had a dream of when your inner light shone.
Right now, Im having major problems with life,
Believing it is nothing but a constant strife.
I find myself wishing that you were still here,
Beside me, taking away all my fear.
To the world, I look like I have it made,
But on the inside, Im so very afraid.
Though things are seemingly at their worst,
Though I can swear that to hell I have been cursed,
I somehow know you give the council I seek,
And your death touches my heart more than three times a week.
I love you, and Ill be missing you forever,
This may be my only endeavor.