It's morbidly interesting...I'm sitting here.
It's frighteningly beautiful- I shed a tear.
Water...life...my suicide knife.
The pain...the blood...remove the strife.
I faded, Fallen...fell too far.
My ultimate high transgressed the stars.
Now I'm afraid...lost...conscious turmoil.
My skin is freezing and my blood will boil.
Reality is fading- lost in chaos.
Seeing life is understanding paradox.
Do you understand I died and survived hell?
The pains and the images no words can tell?
In life I seek to find solace or peace.
Both of them evade me...happiness has ceased.
I wish you never to see all that I have seen.
I beg you never be the places I have been.
The amplitude of death just haunts my mind.
I want out but don't know if I'll make it this time.
I'm looking for the good, I' looking for the light.
But I'm being dragged down by the cold, dark night.
I feel so helpless, I feel so alone.
I find only emptiness in my own home.
I thought I knew love- the definition is frail.
I'm falling forever- I'm destined to fail