The walls are closing in, I'm drowning in this sin.
Deep inside my heart's black hole I'm seeing I cannot win.
Pick me up, baby- take me to the very top.
Dangle me from threads of rope then watch as I take the drop.
Playing with the mind- you lead a dangerous game.
But you are no psychologist and you had five minutes of fame.
Now the darkest larks are crying-
They called your bluff and you're scared 'cause you're lying.
It's like Russian Roulette but the bullet's been engraved
So the only shot left is to the one you've been enslaved.
And it hurts- this game that was not built to last.
But I stand there and take it- blast after blast.
Like a stray bullet noone saw that I caught with my chest.
Pierced my heart, baby, so I'll lie down to rest.
The whole crowd's wondering what the fuck happened,
But I'm on the floor dying while you're screaming "it didn't happen!"
But you can scream and cry those tears of pretense-
The shooter's hopped three walls and straight-cleared the fence.
The whole crowd's runnin- they scared for their lives,
Could've killed half the city with my own damn knives.
Steal the rest at the faintest core of my heart.
But it's time now, baby- we tearing ourselves apart.
It happened babe, reality struck hard,
Shoulda ducked, shoulda dodged, but I stood like a retard.
And it hurts from my chest, so goddamn hard to breathe.
Like 1,2,3, and it drove me to my knees.
But it wasn't real- didn’t happen, but the pain hurts so bad.
Maybe my mind FUCKED UP more than it ever has.
Or more like pulling the deadly 9 from its shelf
Maybe it was bullshit so I'll do it myself.
Bullets fly by as I walk out the garage.
Pulled off three shots and fuckin forgot to dodge.
Hit the floor hard and curse the fuckin world.
Fade away remembering the face of my beautiful girl.
Like every time I pull my ass back to my feet,
Another shot blows me down from the end of the street.
And the road gets rough and hard a long time shown,
Draggin my ass as I can just so I can be known.
Hit the end of the street to all the faces I've seen,
Friends and brothers holding all the guns I've cleaned.
And you're standing inside- watching it all.
No intention of walking out- just watch me fall.
So steadily and stealthily my heartbeat is failing.
I hear heaven's call and know God is hailing.
That's what this pain feels like but it just don't relate.
Can't erase the hate so walk over and congradulate
All those people that I've sworn not to kill.
All the people who said they'd keep it real.
So I look for a simple or easier way out,
Can't off myself- I'll live through this without a doubt.
I always said the line was bullshit and I didn't wanna fight.
Tried to tell you but only the Lord knows I was right.
And now the line's been crossed so fast,
This game and all it's players can kiss my fuckin ass.
So I take that blade- you gave it to me, you know.
Bleed from fatal wounds that radiate indigo.
Didn't understand this once- it was cursed.
Didn't know the pain you'd bring would be the fuckin worst.
Pop some pills- Valium and Tylenol.
Stumble so weakly down the fuckin hall.
Try my best to write goodbye but I can't even walk through the back door.
Look, fucker! The fuckin pain don't hurt no more!
All of these are actions I've already damned,
Seems right that I die now by my own right hand.
So still it seems to be this dangerous game you play.
Will you ever know what I feel? Perhaps one fuckin day.
But the bullets are yours- come on, baby- hit my brain.
After all, you've promised me You'd take away my pain.