Shadow's Poetry...
I'm Not Okay
Home
*The* Rose
...But I Am
Shit
Baby Baby
Garden Of Glass
The Dance Of Eternal Light
Lost Soul
Parak-Ne Bachin 'De
I'm Not Okay
Deserted Losses
Just Don't Know
Duet
Silenced
Into The Mist Of Memories
Raindrops
Can You Hear Me?
Untitled...Any Suggestions?
Daddy
Untitled, My Dear
Broken
Fear
The Shadow
Eternally Yours
I Feel
Lethal Assassin/Last Time
Shattered
Opposing Forces
Eternal Sunshine
Lullaby
Shadow's "One Step Closer"
Daddy (2)
Kiss Of Death
Metamorphosis
Don't Ask...Don't Know...
The Animal In Me
Uh...No Comment?
Tear My Heart Open
Reality
Gone
Peacin' Out...Signing Off
Reduced To Tears
Please Understand
That Fight I Didn't Win
The Reaper
Shadows Of Oblivion
Just Had To Let Go
Again
Stray Bullet
Life
Actually Untitled
Failed
The Dance
Loving You
For You
Only Friends
Confused And Wishing
Friend In A New World
Caught
Taking Chances
What I Need To See
My Heart With You
The Fire Of Hate
Drowning In Fury
The Tears Of Fear
Suicide
Sudden Betrayal
Life Is Like A Game
I Wish
Last Words
Parted
Cancer
Still Together
Couldn't Say I'm Sorry
Remembering You
Once
A Time
Walking Tall
Goodbye
Ready To Die
Silence
Hidden
Where Did You Go?
Forced Lie
An Angel?
Missing You Already
My Dad: Gone Too Soon
WWII
Protecting You
Freedom
I'm Sorry
The Day I Died
Secrets
It Could Have Been
Betrayal Is The Cruelest Thing
The End
The Real Me That Nobody Sees
Too Late
If I Died Tomorrow
My Grandma And Grandpa
My Family And Friends
Friends Are Like Angels
For My Father
To My Mother
Scot
Stephanie
Faded
Anarchy
Another Day
Kill Me
Suicide (2)
What Went Wrong?
Suicide Intentions
Revenge
Desecrated Glory
You Betrayed Me- The Other Side
You Betrayed Me
What Was It Before?
For Us
Until Death Do Us Part
I Love You And Goodbye
Sleeper
Children
One Of The Things That Break Me
Darkness Falls
Vitality
Drawn Together
I'm Not All Right
Holy Alliance
Do You Know what You Mean To Me?
Get Your Desires When I Retire

To Kaci before I finally gave up on giving a shit

The walls are closing in, I'm drowning in this sin.

Deep inside my heart's black hole I'm seeing I cannot win.

Pick me up, baby- take me to the very top.

Dangle me from threads of rope then watch as I take the drop.

Playing with the mind- you lead a dangerous game.

But you are no psychologist and you had five minutes of fame.

Now the darkest larks are crying-

They called your bluff and you're scared 'cause you're lying.

It's like Russian Roulette but the bullet's been engraved

So the only shot left is to the one you've been enslaved.

And it hurts- this game that was not built to last.

But I stand there and take it- blast after blast.

Like a stray bullet noone saw that I caught with my chest.

Pierced my heart, baby, so I'll lie down to rest.

The whole crowd's wondering what the fuck happened,

But I'm on the floor dying while you're screaming "it didn't happen!"

But you can scream and cry those tears of pretense-

The shooter's hopped three walls and straight-cleared the fence.

The whole crowd's runnin- they scared for their lives,

Could've killed half the city with my own damn knives.

Steal the rest at the faintest core of my heart.

But it's time now, baby- we tearing ourselves apart.

It happened babe, reality struck hard,

Shoulda ducked, shoulda dodged, but I stood like a retard.

And it hurts from my chest, so goddamn hard to breathe.

Like 1,2,3, and it drove me to my knees.

But it wasn't real- didn’t happen, but the pain hurts so bad.

Maybe my mind FUCKED UP more than it ever has.

Or more like pulling the deadly 9 from its shelf

Maybe it was bullshit so I'll do it myself.

Bullets fly by as I walk out the garage.

Pulled off three shots and fuckin forgot to dodge.

Hit the floor hard and curse the fuckin world.

Fade away remembering the face of my beautiful girl.

Like every time I pull my ass back to my feet,

Another shot blows me down from the end of the street.

And the road gets rough and hard a long time shown,

Draggin my ass as I can just so I can be known.

Hit the end of the street to all the faces I've seen,

Friends and brothers holding all the guns I've cleaned.

And you're standing inside- watching it all.

No intention of walking out- just watch me fall.

So steadily and stealthily my heartbeat is failing.

I hear heaven's call and know God is hailing.

That's what this pain feels like but it just don't relate.

Can't erase the hate so walk over and congradulate

All those people that I've sworn not to kill.

All the people who said they'd keep it real.

So I look for a simple or easier way out,

Can't off myself- I'll live through this without a doubt.

I always said the line was bullshit and I didn't wanna fight.

Tried to tell you but only the Lord knows I was right.

And now the line's been crossed so fast,

This game and all it's players can kiss my fuckin ass.

So I take that blade- you gave it to me, you know.

Bleed from fatal wounds that radiate indigo.

Didn't understand this once- it was cursed.

Didn't know the pain you'd bring would be the fuckin worst.

Pop some pills- Valium and Tylenol.

Stumble so weakly down the fuckin hall.

Try my best to write goodbye but I can't even walk through the back door.

Look, fucker! The fuckin pain don't hurt no more!

All of these are actions I've already damned,

Seems right that I die now by my own right hand.

So still it seems to be this dangerous game you play.

Will you ever know what I feel? Perhaps one fuckin day.

But the bullets are yours- come on, baby- hit my brain.

After all, you've promised me You'd take away my pain.

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