I walk down the hall in total silence,
It is not how it was before all the violence.
My left hand on the wall, looking to my right,
I stare out into the cold, dark night.
I'm looking into the quad where I used to hang with my friends,
This horror I feel inside I know never ends.
I remember this hall on a bright sunny day,
My friends were together and we were all at play.
This part of my life, like the sun, disappeared,
And my life has become everything I feared.
The dimly lit hall sheds not a sound,
I cant call for my friends because nobody's around.
The cold bites at me like pins to my skin,
And Im slowly being torn apart from within.
An icy fog trails my every slow breath,
Every shadow whispers the reminiscence of death.
Another salty tear streaks the side of my face,
And I suddenly remember how it all took place.
Im remembering the moment god took my friend,
I try to black it out but it plays over again.
Right here, in this hall, they took his life,
When it started, who knew the attacker would draw a knife?
I saw it coming before anyone else did,
So why did I just watch like every stupid kid?
When I heard my friend scream, I started to react.
I moved so fast that my path wasnt tracked.
The kid with the knife then turned to me,
I knew there was no possible way to flee.
As he attacked, I tripped him and heard his head crack,
I knew right then he won't be back.
Last time, "just watch" is what they all said,
Now is my friend and foe that are dead.
Now Im in the hall, my parents paid bail,
I know when I fight charges, I will soon fail.
I breathe in deep, tears falling again,
This isnt the action of most teenage men.
Its my fault my friend's dead 'cause I didnt move soon enough,
I cry yet again though everyone says to "be tough".
I stare down the empty hall with dimly lit lights,
To end my friends life, it took one stupid fight.
I feel the cold is the remnants of his faded soul,
I want to disappear forever into a deep, dark hole.
Whatever decisions I make arent right,
Now I am engulfed by the lonely night.
I still see the hall, my vision blurred by mist,
Im still looking for that lone opportunity I've missed.
I can still see out into the black abyss,
Soon, I will never feel again my mother's kiss.
I close my eyes and listen to the silence,
It wasnt this way before all the violence.